I remembered You, O God and I groaned (Psalm 77:3, NIV)
This is the favorite verse of the main character, Samantha Hart, in my latest novel, One Among Men. She got this verse from me. It was my first favorite and the very first I’d ever memorized when I began studying the Good Book in my late twenties.
You may wonder why someone would love a verse about groaning at the memory of God. Isn’t that memory something we should sing about instead? Well, yes, but the idea I needed to be reminded of Him is most definitely groan worthy. And yet there was an author, like me, charged with penning the actual Words of God, who needed to do the same.
That gave me hope.
Hope that after having forgotten about Him for too many years, I could also be used by Him to do great things. Samantha Hart feels the same. You see, she’d abandoned God when her mother was murdered many years before, remembering Him only enough to rebel against the things she knew He’d wanted for her. She squandered her relationships only to come up feeling more empty than she’d been after her mother’s death. But God never left her. Much like he’d never left me. He worked in my life, behind the scenes, and would occasionally make His presence apparently clear … until one day, I remembered Him … and groaned.
It was a good groan. Much like the kind we communicate to the Holy Spirit who in turn translates them to the Father. He answers those groans, so I keep verbalizing them. He’s my Daddy after all. The One whose arms I fall into when things aren’t going my way. The One who holds me up when my knees want to buckle. The One who smiles and touches a kiss to my forehead when I need to feel loved. The One who pats me on the back and says, “You can do it” when I can’t imagine how.
I can do it with Him—that’s how.
So I keep remembering … and groaning.
Samantha Hart is looking for godly purpose, like her missionary best friend, but is forced to take a job as the resident director of the all-male party dorm at the major state university where her prodigal past haunts her. She must avert the pitfalls of a woman in her position as well as the dangerous forces that threaten her life.
Chris Johnson, a rock guitarist, has come back to school as a music major, and finds himself in a business relationship with the ruthless supplier of an on-campus drug ring. He’s intrigued by the lady RD, while learning more about his musical gift and the God who gave it to him. Can he manage his two worlds without risking Samantha’s life?
Connie Almony is trained as a mental health therapist and likes to mix a little fun with the serious stuff of life. She was a 2012 semi-finalist in the Genesis Contest for Women’s Fiction and was awarded an Honorable Mention in the Winter 2012 WOW Flash Fiction Contest. She is the author of One Among Men, about a woman whose job requires she live with 500, hard-partying college guys, and At the Edge of a Dark Forest, a modern-day re-telling of Beauty and the Beast about a war-vet, amputee struggling with PTSD.
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